18.05.2012 Pretty?

I'm not ugly, but I'm not pretty. I always show off to friends around me that how pretty I am bla bla and bla, but I they actually know that, I'm not really that confidence of my appearance, I mean some of them know, especially about my body shape, I'm seriously feel that, I'm fat. I'm not a fair lady which I desperately wanna be, I don't have a pair of 42inches long leg, I don't have big boobs, I don't have the kind of waterish eyes, I don't have a slim body, I don't have smooth and silky hair, I don't have baby skin. Conclusion, I don't have any symptom of a pretty girl. 

People always say, being pretty is not important as long as you're kind, nice person. Inner beauty wins everything. That is people's thought. Yet, that's not true. The world is cruel, reality. I mean it, that's what I felt after I started to work at the society, especially in freelance show girl world. If you look gorgeous and pretty, your payment for sure is higher and you can be selected by agent easily when there're any job. Example, 175cm girl payment RM300, 160cm girl payment RM100. That's so call reality. If there're some part of you kinda fat, you probably can't even get the RM100 job. See, world is cruel. That's so important being pretty.  

Confidence came from appearance. That's a fact. You can easily realize some of the people they might be intelligent and smart, but they're not confidence enough if they don't have a good looking. Example, a 160cm girl wearing a flat and a girl 160cm but wearing an 4inches high heel. You can totally sense the difference between both of them. The one with high heel always cheek up, confidence. 

I wanna be pretty. I'm desperately to be pretty. Height is a fact that I can't change, so I'm trying my best to change the wide of my body. I'm working hard towards my target weight that match my height which is 43kg. Sounds easy but actually so hard to achieve. 43kg even lighter than my weight when I was form 2. But I need to try. The world wouldn't stop turning for you but you have to change to fit the world's rules. 

Conclusion, ME WANT TO BE PRETTY.

14/05/2012 - HTC vs Iphone 4S

Seriously been abandon the dear bloggy lately. I should have update more about my daily life in order to avoid spiders build their cute house here.


It was an outing day with the boyfie. It's the first outing of us like officially after the final exam of us. You know we both had our exam exactly at the same dates. So we were frustrated and don't even have time on date or movies. I know it's late to say that I've finally watched the Avengers today at Midvalley. Everyone watched that but me. Credits to the boyfie. HNG. Long time no date, long time no holiday.



Still in love with Thor, the other heroes failed to attract me, me is loyal type lol. =p Oh no, I fell for Hulk actually. Hahaha. He's cute =p Been searched for phone around the Megamall yet actually I have no idea what I'm seaching actually. You know my jungle phone followed me around 3 years and I think it's time for it to have a rest and let the new generation to continue serving me =p


This,

Or this?

Seriously I have no idea which to choose. Friends around me know that I have the difficulty in choosing which one I want. Boyfie knew that the most. I'm in love with HTC 1X but I know it's hard for me to find a case for it since it's not that popular like Iphone. Iphone cute case all around the world. Not for 1X :( I don't need much just need one but it seems like mission impossible. :(




Please tell me which one should I choose I'm seriously dilemma right now peeps.

The only photo of the day. xoxo, good night peeps

The direction

Had a lil small chat with the girls last night at 21st Century. Only 3 of us, while other members were busy on their stuffs. I love these kind of chit chat, talked about future, talked about family, boyfriends, beauty, gossips, anythings.



Future. Once a while, I would wonder, what kind of job I will get for myself after I graduate? I have zero idea on it. Seriously. Education is just an escape for quite a lot of people who just like me, lost direction on their future. But people grow, everyone have to face the fact that we're getting older and need to learn the way to face the truth or accept changes of life. I refused to face it, but I know I couldn't escape for long.




Everyone is selfish in this world, including myself. We need to fight for what we want on our own, don't expect to rely on people to baby feeding you forever. Somehow I'm so proud to say that I earn and I spend myself. At least I don't really take pocket money from family. But as a girl, although I'm only spend for my own daily expenses, I can hardly handle these. I wanted to be a princess like what other girl did, but I know I can't and it's impossible. Am learning so hard to be independent, although is suffering but I think I did quite well on it.



21st birthday is coming, represent me that no longer a kids, so start thinking. What's my future? Work for others? Be a boss who order others? Or what?

I'm lost.

02052012 - 灰姑娘长大了

1st May 2012

It was my beloved Baby Jim's precious 21st birthday. As traditions, we celebrate at the night before the actual day and leave the actual day for boyfriends.



Went to Angel Dress boutique which located at Kuchai Lama since the birthday girl need a nail do and they offered a quite cheap price which only RM35 for manicure. Besides, this is the shop that we love the most among all boutique at Kuchai Lama and I'm seeking for a dress too.

Pub chosen by the birthday girl, 7atenine located at The Ascott, KL. No judgement for food since we were late and their kitchen was closing while we arrived, but yes, service is recommended, their service was just so good :)

The birthday girl. Madly in love with her style of the day. She was just so+extremely gorgeous that night. Hairdo by Hairroom, dress by Angel Dress Boutique. 

Ignore my 1/4 body. LOL.

Mentioned their kitchen was doing closing when we reached, but actually most of us were starved. Picture above shown our dinner of that night, yea we ordered Domino pizza at the pub TROLOL. They don't allow earlier but not after we begged them, not our fault wad, your kitchen didn't provide food also. =p Thanks for allowing though.

Girls outfit of the night.

What a coincidence that we wore same type of dress without any agreement. We were so Spiderman that night. Oh lovely lace. And I nearly got a pair of shoes alike with Baby V too !

Haagen Dazs cake for the birthday girl.

Bonia watch for her from us. She's kind of girl who quite anti local product =p Yet, she love this watch so much and we made a right decision to choose her a watch that so match with her style. :)

Birthday girl showing off with her lace pink nails and the lovely watch from us. See I said the watch just suits her much.

They blamed me for too enjoy kissing the lovely lady lol.

An unexpected incident of the day. We bumped into a group of tourist who came from Poland while we're doing our capture session. They were holding their video cam and recording the surrounding of Malaysia. Sincere wish from them to the birthday girl. :) Funny babyV were afraid of them and squeezed into the middle space among us. LOL.

Time flies and this is the 6th birthday I've been through with the birthday girl. She has the youngest face among us and now she finally officially grow into a lovely lady. We always afraid of the day coming, afraid of growing into 21years old because for us, it do sounds old. Yet, actually 21st is a symptom of people step into another process of life. Not getting older, but more mature, no longer acting like a kids. Anyway, baby girl you know you will got the most precious birthday wish from me right? I know I didn't text you at the actual day of your birthday, but I'm now blogging a simple post for you and wish you all the best in your future, may all the happiness belongs to you, live healthily, joyful, away from trouble.



Happy Belated birthday my dear Lealea.



Much love from your dear Spence.

Photo of the day. Outfit from Angel Dress Boutique, hairdo from Hairroom. More photos kindly refer to baby Jim's album .